I’m in trouble 2006 January 4 4:05
Posted by diamond in : Random , add a commentLast night i went to bed early. I got up at 06:30 after 3.5 hours sleep. I was both shattered and wired all day. Tried getting a nap in the afternoon, something which normally works wonders for making a bad day bearable. Gave up after an hour of waiting. It’s now 03:35 and i still can’t sleep. I’ve taken the mediation, i’ve avoided caffiene, i was not stressed.
I’m in trouble.
Normally when a person misses sleep, they can just catch-up on it over one or two nights. I can’t.
I’m scared.
I’m scared at how much this going to screw up the next week. I’m scared at how little hope i can see for being vaguely human anytime soon. I’m scared at how all of this dwarfs pretty much everything else in my mind. Most of all, i’m scared that this isn’t temporary, that the medication has lost it’s effectiveness, and i know that without it i’m… fucked.
I’m probably just being irrational, over-reacting, but i’m in no position to be able to tell.
