Doctor doctor 2006 May 16 12:44
Posted by diamond in : Random , trackbackHad my appointment with my consultant today. He seems quite pleased with how things are going, says he doesn’t need to see me again for another year. If/when i get a more regular job i’m supposed to start slowly reducing the amount of medication i’m taking to see if it’s possible to become less dependant on it. So, why am i so utterly depressed?
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you need a southpark haircut – this will either provide you with happiness or…with a picture of you with shorter hair…:) siigh and *muchskz*
P’raps you’re sad at the idea of not having lil white friends to carry in your pocket? *cuddle* though
I think it’s definately the Mac Mini…
Or the Dell – we better take them off your hands just in case…
On a more serious note, it’s difficult (for anyone) to feel great when you rarely get a good night’s sleep. I’m a zombie after 1 bad night’s sleep. Can’t imagine what it’s like when you get lots of them together.
Another question is if it’s a depression or the “bruising” after. It takes a hell of a long time to pick up on ones energy again.
It’s chaotically regular, of course. But chaos is also a defined pattern, quite often more interesting than being pigeionholed in a 9-5 matrix.
Also, you have a regular job
Your limit is your imagination. There’s all this computer crap, developed by crap programmers on crap platforms designed by crap engineers [I'm {probably} not talking about people in Cork...]. Just think. How would you design the hw/sw that REALLY makes a difference… Perhaps Turing and von Neumann got it wrong! Why does some very simple things take a gazillion of lines to code? Why is there always a bug?